Words are all I have..

As I officially start my blog today, was wondering why does one write on a public platform?

Is it the desire to pen down ur feelings.. the ones u r too scared to share wid anyone else? there is a strange comfort in writing down all you feel here…u don’t mind if some random person stumbles upon ur most intimate secrets.. coz there are words u cannot say, feelings u cannot express and guards u cant let down when u r talking to people in person.. u strive to maintain that image of invincibility and try to protect urself from the reactions of those around u..

Sometimes u just want to be kind… not wishing to drown ur dear ones in ur sorrows.. u might not even want to accept that u r feeling low.. not willing to accept that whenver u feel u hv got over a particular phase of life, a single thought can bring it all back crashing on ur head.. numbing u into silence.. pushing u into d oblivion..

A random thought, a random fragrance, a random look from a stranger may bring out that which u had hidden in the deepest recesses of ur soul for an eternity.. the walls that u had built around u come crumbling down with just one glimpse of a picture, one hello from that voice and one memory of that touch.. ur eyes sting as the tears try to force their way out.. u may not be able to share it with anyone.. but u may write.. and write again to let it all out.. to relive it again and again.. to never let it go..

For all that u are today and all that u will be tomorrow.. is a result of all that u have been in the past.. it is a mixture of all ur feelings, all ur hurts, all ur happiness.. all d good and d bad times.. all that loneliness and d occasional smiles.. all the devotion and an occasional deceit.. all d words said in anger and d ones said in passion.. its who u are.. its who u have been.. and its who u will become tmrw..